August 2012
17 posts
"...And how do you ever know what to believe? When...
Mean what you say and say what you mean— a simple way to keep your hands clean and your conscious, guilt free.
July 2012
56 posts
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Blood may be thicker than water, but when you’re drowning, does it really matter?
You're Missing Out Majorly
Figuring life out is a beautiful thing, the only thing that comes close to this is admiring as someone else figures it out as well. Do good by your children and they’ll stay close, allowing you to experience this time and time again, in every possible way. Just keep your emotions at bay and let them find their own path.
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Silently Looking Out
Ever meet a cat with the tendencies of a mouse? They’re either too lazy to give chase, or too proud. But they’re still sneaky… and never loud, always taking more than they’re allowed, buzzing with the furious energy of a crowd.
And they always purr… just enough… when they’re found, begging you to pet the silky sleek body to which they’re bound.
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Where we gonna go... from... here...?
Anybody want to point me in the direction of the wisdom of a man with all the answers? Or the strength of all of the survivors of cancer? How about the grace in the toes of a ballet dancer?
“As if any one is entitled to such a privilege. In what kind of a dream world have you been allowed to live? My child, my child, it’s all take because no one gives! But here- first things first-...
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Another Embellished Warning From The Probabilities...
I wish my body was pressed up against yours… really could use some of your heat that my skin loves to absorb. But what for? There’s no point, knowing I’m cold to the core… which is why I think I may need more. I can’t trust emotions, they’re meant to deform exactly what I need to reform but that doesn’t mean I don’t want a companion, just one kind of out of the norm. A cloudless rain storm,...
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The Only Reason You Stay is a Chance To Save The...
See I gave up lying, but I still tip-toe. I’m as stubborn as they come, and I’m known to hit low.
I fell out of my stream of self-consciousness and I’ve got welts on my mind to signify all my accomplishments. I dip my brush into the what, I’ve wept for and wonder out loud as I can, how long I’ve slept for and when it breaks, lock the door, walk away. There...
Trick This
A disappearing act is impressive if the Magician always comes back but only a mystery if no one is still around to clap…
Let's Find Somewhere Up High, & Watch The City...
Let’s start ourselves a fire inside me… I’ll burn myself to ashes, & stop every bleed. Let’s start ourselves a fire inside you… burn you down to ashes, until you’re through… -Excerpt from a Felon’s writing (title by me)
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Everything Little Thing - What does it mean?
There’s nothing that doesn’t have a voice it uses to speak -no- SCREAM when you’re hitting top speed.
I am heaven sent,
Don’t you dare forget.[[MORE]]
You are all I’ve ever wanted, What all the other boys all promised. I think in decimals and dollars.
You are the cause to all my problems, Sheltered from cold, but still always alone. Coordinate brain and mouth,...
My Life Is Ironic In All The Wrong Ways
Everyone I based my conclusions, and proper responses on, is now gone because I realized they were wrong but now there’s no where for me to go since the right way for me to show anyone what they need to know was conditioned away, by what are now my ghosts.
And I feel like I’m crazy.
I can’t even enjoy the happiness I’ve found because of the people I spent my time around....
Is Everything and Everyone This Difficult, or Is...
I’m sorry I’m so difficult… I am but I’m not. I’m sorry in the really sad way, the way where there’s nothing to say— no excuse to make because it’s not something that I fake and no matter how hard I try, I always seem to reach the point where something breaks and it’s too much for somebody, or everybody, to take.
I have an issue with authority, always demanding...
I want to be taught, not told, so you shouldn’t scold when I open my mouth to understand the knowledge that you hold… because when in my hand, it must be coaxed to unfold.
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I know a girl with an artist trapped deeply inside...
She provides for herself, she don’t need you to like her
She dresses like a famous portrait
She talks like an angel with the makeup of dangerous torment
She don’t wanna get married, she wanna get carried
Away, and figure out how to display all the things she wants to say
She would try to paint, but she don’t got the patience that it looks like it takes (oh no)
Plus...
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Synthetic Hope Will Make You Fake
Everytime I tried to explain, I only explained you away
Until you trailed off along with the words I’d say.
Nowadays, I realize how far I allowed myself to stray
And things have since changed.
Next time, I’ll get pleasure knowing you’re now MY prey.
How’s it feel, me causing your faith to rock and shake?
I consumed your synthetic hope, is your pain just as fake?
Go ahead, scream, tell me...
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The beauty of life is when you're forced to make...
The beauty of life is when you’re forced to make it ugly, so you just gotta throw your head back and laugh even when it isn’t funny, and recognize the rare moments you get lucky.
Stay hungry.[[MORE]]
One day you just may find yourself someone that makes every place home, who’s aware that you can hold your own if he needs to send you out or leave you behind, safe but alone.
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Toss & Turn
I live in a world where crickets sound like birds and the minutes aren’t measured in seconds, but in words and the sunlight makes your eyes burn.
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Gotta Find Something to Calm Me Down when I'm...
I’d love to take every person who throws around the term “OCD” as a way to say that they just prefer things a certain way, and give them a day of the anxiety actually having OCD gives people.
Anyone who underestimates how terrible it is to have your OCD triggered, and to not be able to do anything about it, is seriously an insensitive, unsympathetic asshole.
So fuck them.
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Thought Tornado- Stupid Sayings and Bad Advice...
I thought the key to people was to treat others how you wanted to be treated. When I heard it, it just made sense. I didn’t question it. I mean, that was easy really. However, that’s bad advice and it’s obvious why and how. Now try and follow me:[[MORE]]
If you were to treat others how YOU want to be treated, and then expected them to treat you that same way, then you are being...
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Ghostal
Rumor has it, she’s always near… forever craving another soul to hold close. Is it self control or lack of it, that holds her back?
What do you suppose?
I feel like a ghost… my voice is a barely there- a breath at most. Hittin’ rough waters when all I want to do is coast. Someone must have picked up my glass of life and used it to propose a drunken toast.
The angels tell...
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Can't Sleep Since The Thought Of Waking Up...
I want to punch every single person who has ever made the comment, “Oh, you’re clearly not a morning person.”
I LOVE the morning time.
The dew drops on the green of the smooth leaves, the way the sun shines onto the lawns through the tree branches, the fog that dances on it. It’s amazing and I love it. I just hate waking up. It’s a disturbing state change.
You Left Me With A Bitter Sweet Taste of Faith,...
You don’t have to be a villian to fuck up a super hero’s day,
Don’t even gotta touch them to make ‘em Go Away.
It’s all in the delivery of every thing you choose to say.
Watch as their powers quickly fade to grey
&Make sure you hide your face,
&Any remnant of masochistic hope that, distant but gone, they’ll stay.
Tears start to drip as pupils and...
Random Ramble
I don’t understand people who just look for things. That involves getting lost and concentration. I prefer to just explore everything and then I’ll run into whatever it is that originally peaked my interest. Maybe that’s just too time consuming, who knows?
Originally Ghost Written by Me for Somebody, Now...
#Everything you’re about to claim is exposed as untrue, simple and plain, in your hesitation ALONE— left unscathed by the engage of a #musclecalledtongue, and a #vocalcordcage… I feel every nerve ending scream as my ear drums become the page for your never ending, passive aggressive rage waging a war against #myparanoidways.
Was that air intake a name? Or just...
Tryin' to figure out shit, it took a bit, but back...
Georgia is #FeelinTheHeat, got me all #RedInTheCheeks because #Ifeeltheneedtospeak with someone trustworthy, indeed, so I can breathe easily. What’s got me fightin’ sleep? And restlessly writing rhythmically laced piece after piece- poetry, therapy; break it down, reach the peak. Or is this just lunatic ink with the desire to spread, infect and leak just like the concerns I’ve...
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Trying To See Through Our Combined Fog (RE EDIT,...
Oh shit!
A mysterious case - Zoning into outer space;
Yesterday.
Tomorrow.
Today.[[MORE]]
I’ll tell you eventually that it doesn’t feels okay when you reply with a yawn- the closest we’ve gotten to a syllable, traveling my way after exiting your face… A piss poor response that’s a waste, another heart cored song… followed by a soft spoken chase.
...
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I'm exhausted but still awake thanks to the...
But I’m useless, just sitting here… staring at a screen, not giving a fuck what any of it means, just wishing you’d at least seem to want to talk to me.
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And, like a semi truck, it hits.
Anxiety kicks like the kiss of a fist. Something ain’t right… all the pieces fit. And I know exactly what it is, which should scare the ever living shit out of you. I don’t know why people are ever surprised by what a little isolation can do.
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I see everything twice!
Once through my eyes and then again through a camera lens.
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I can't help but feel you're trying to escape...
Possibly even tryin’ to break free, maybe.
Now listen carefully.
You’re making it harder than it needs to be.
The handcuffs on your wrists weren’t placed by me, and in the palm of your hand— you hold the key. All this time, I bet you feel silly.
I’ll even help you untie the rope, if you just say please and ask me nicely.
I understand when you dig a hole,...
If you could put the galaxy in the jar...
Would you share it with me? Would you even let me admire it from afar?
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You know you run on straight caffeine and genius...
You know you’re a stoner when you forget you made a second cup every time and get super excited when you realize it’s there.
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Skype- Marketing Campaign from the P.O.V. of a...
You get the full experience of FACE TO FACE, REAL HUMAN INTERACTION minus all of the inconvenient hassles that lead you to your life of lonely isolation as you know it. Welcome the beautiful combination of verbal AND facial reactions to your topics of conversations without resurrecting the unpleasant qualities that tend to accompany this activity including, but not limited to: unpleasant smells,...
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Teacher
I don’t want to be the one that teaches you how people like me work… Don’t make me show you the results of a broken home when all you’ve known your whole life is love. Stay naive, stay away, keep your innocent notion of family and life intact. Even if you want to know the raw truth, don’t let me be the one to open your eyes, don’t make me live with that on my...
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Monster
In front of you, you see a struggle. Hell. A brutal war forged by masochistic hands and blood thirsty tongues. What you don’t see is how close to my soul this disgusting, gut-wrenching reality actually is. What you are shielding your eyes from, protecting your children from… It Is Mine.[[MORE]]
It’s an essential piece of what I call myself. A night terror to you is just reality to me....
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Love Letters Defined
I want you to feel your fingers on the keyboard for a second, next time you’re typing I want you to concentrate on the contact of skin and plastic. Let me see if I can hit this nail right on the head, what does it feel like?
Disconnection, just the tapping of keys as little black (or purple, or red, or orange) letters appear on your illuminated screen. Tell me how a writer can find solace...
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Repetition is only beautiful in spiderwebs,...
You know you’re truly in love with a song when it makes you say, “Damn, I could listen to this, back-to-back, nonstop for the rest of my life”, every time you hear it.
You know you’re truly in love with a man when he makes you say, “Damn, I could do this every day for the rest of my life”, every time his lips touch yours.
Static Memories
&At that exact moment it hit me: from this heart beat on, I will never forget that song. Every time those notes begin, I’ll be swiftly carried, without protest, back to the second your eyes linked with mine. I’ll forever remember the distinct way it played out of the speaker of your cheap, outdated radio… lyrics struggling through broken static. And I wouldn’t have it...
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I just want to sit home all night.. scrolling...
Truth.
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Paranoid Noise to fill the Void, Make a Choice.
Had a lot on my mind, a lot of answers I can’t find because faith and I aren’t one of a kind. Damage, left behind from all of the times I was allowed to believe something was mine when I should have read between the lines. Now I’m confined to remain behind any restrictions that leave me blind until someone shows me that they’re on my side, and down for the entire ride, ups...
Shadows of the Night, Time to Hide
She wears the sunrise like a disguise but look a little closer and you’ll find nothing but ethereal moonlight illuminating her eyes, so turn and run inside since everyone knows that bonefied creatures of the night are born to utilize the shadows to creep and hide, searching until they find a soft soul to bite.
You're a Fatality.
I must resume to be tamed, hushed… locked away neatly under lock and key indefinitely, only to proceed when my mentality is concrete and steady and I’ve determined, conclusively, how to efficiently answer my own needs and stitch my damn self up when I begin to bleed.
I have the personality of a lovable fiend, and my drug of choice has a tongue that can speak a beautiful language I’ve...
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Mary Jane is my Lois Lane
There’s one thing in which I believe and it’s a beautiful, deep shade of green, the scent carries over, riding the breeze - an aromatic tease.
“Breathe… hold it tight & don’t release, muscles ease as desire is pleased.”
Eyes haze over, my thoughts are freed, the vibrancy turns the white a light pink, & rose colored thoughts are now all I think.
Last but...
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IDGAF, I got the volume up. Down, burn it all...
I’ve came so far, this I know, and it was just starting to show but I’m drained from head to toe. There’s no where else I can go. I’m running on fumes, and even those are mighty low and being wasted on tears, released by irreplaceable fears, a never ending flow.
You love the way the moonlight makes them glow; that’s just not enough though…[[MORE]]
My mind has...
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It may not be much, but it's all yours
It ain’t pretty here now but I promise it will be, one day, when the sun rays are honest. Meanwhile, I warn you not to stand near me. I scrape and scratch until my arms are weary.
I built my fence a little too late. The demons were already in, and now they can’t escape. I’ve been toe to toe with most of them though. As a whole, they must parish in order for me to grow. Each one...
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UE Scavenger Hunt ROUGH DRAFT
My version of the NAUEI photographer scavenger hunt would be as such: Sarah, Felon and I create the first list. First, second, and third person who got the most items off of each list by end date (maybe end of month?) get to make the next list(s) [alternate options will be included for those too busy for such endeavors]. Categories would be similar to the following:
A) Specifics: A specific item...
Risk in Comfort? Does Heat Always Lead To Cold?...
Over used or not, I can relate to this 100%- For every positive, there’s a negative and for all the good, there’s a bad to balance it out. Such is the universe (speaking in generalities) so here it is:
I can be very generous and I can be that way not because I’m weak, rather it’s because I’m strong. Strong enough even to sometimes help others, when it’s...
I’m an open book written in a foreign tongue, symbols for days and not a single person knows the words my pages say. You can’t force someone to believe, but you can teach them how to pray. I won’t force you to read anything, but I would recite it for days if you would just stay but instead…. you fade.
Freak Show Status: On The Road
I was, at least for a bit, happy to be home- segregated in my basement, isolated and alone- but now a days I’ve been itching to ressurrect this freak show I’ve maintained at every high and low, with an extra unexpected band wagon in tow
Now that passion is once again in control, we have set our sights on goals which is known to be followed shortly by the familiar motor, chugging...
